found guilty!

Assalamualaikum.

Tadi pagi semasa waktu beramah mesra dengan orang orang office, isu yang kami bincangkan adalah

“Miiiiii, banyaknya saman kereta kauuu”

eh? macammana dorang tau neh. sedangkan laki aku sendiri pun nda tau. selama ini aku memang berahsia sama dia yang bahawa aku ini mungkin sudah di saman 7 – 8 kali kerana parking. aku suka mewujudkan parking space sendiri! aku memang punya kesabaran terhadap mencari parking yang sangat nipis. dan aku selalu lepaskan perasaan ini di dalam twitter <--- eceh sindrom orang kebaruan ada twitter. di mana-mana dia mesti mau bagitau dia ada twitter. uhuk.

balik cerita. macamana dorang boleh tau tadi tu. orang office aku neh pegi main main laman web myeg tuh. jadi pegi masukkan nombor ic semua orang di office. lepas tuh di temuilah pulak pemenangnya siapa. HAHAHA.

inilah akibat asal kena saman pegi tapuk itu surat saman jangan bagi laki nampak. aku juga pernah buang terus kertas saman tuh sebab aku sakit hati aku kena saman padahal bukan salah aku KK nda cukup parking space. ya Allah saikonya akuu T____T

eh tapik 2010 prestasi aku di jalan raya cemerlang lah. langsung tiada saman. weewitt.

jadi pergi kira total up saman yang perlu kita bayar. RM 510. ok lah tuh (sambil menangis di dalam hati). sebab aku selalu kira kira sendiri (sedar diri juga neh), aku ada 7 ke 8 saman, setiapnya RM300 (aku reka reka harga), so semuanya is RM2000 plus plus kan. jadi aku masih boleh bersyukur lah sebab kiraan sendiri itu nda betul.

bila bulan pengampunan nya ni ahh?

 

barulah kau sebok

T_____T

what have i learned lately

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fuhhhh fuhhhh fuhhhh semua habuk yang ada. hellooo. i have so many things to tell since my last update. for those yang tahu, sepanjang ketiadaan ku di sini, aku telah di beri peluang untuk MENAMBAH USIA. witness one of my old friend getting hitched. having a blast girls night out (and also day). went to Outstations (again). and letting husband went to Malacca for a week now until friday attending a course (do i have a choice? HAHAHAHA). five of the most significant things that happened around me lately.

on the 11th of December this year i turned 26. i don't think that it is necessary for me to blog about it in here. no? maybe in the next entry. since all of the celebration’ pictures still in the cam. cam is in Malacca now. so yes. i have no mood to write about it without the pictures.

secondly about the friend of mine that has been hitched. also no pictures to share. so passed. the nite out (and the day out), also passed. Outstations story? gotta be kidding. i would really appreciate myself for less talking about work in here. HEHE. and lastly about the husband which been to Malacca for a week leaving the wife alone ahhh i should stop being such a naggy-clingy (is these words even exist? HAHAHA) wife though. so nope. i will not comment anything about that. or things will get pretty ugly. HAHAHAHA.

other than that, let me see hermmmm ahha sudah masuk seminggu rumah khidmat under renovation. i dont understand my mom’s vision. dia ubah bahagian depan rumah dan pindahkan entrance masuk tu ke sebelah. now we have an extra space at the front porch. also some repair-ment on the ceiling needs to be done. this house is becoming old, rangka siling needs to be changed. so now we have three tukang. seorang yang a bit old, seorang yang muda dewasa dan seorang budak lebih muda dari our Meo the skaterboy. the muda-dewasa one was most likely be see as the group leader.semua benda mesti melalui dia dahulu. cut the story short, so pada suatu petang, mom asked us to send them home (to the bus stand). so on the way to the bus stand, inside our kenari, husband did a little chit chat with them.

Tukang 1: boleh tahan lah dalam kenari ni kan. luas. besar. berapa bayarannya sebulan ini begini?

Husband: iya. boleh tahanlah luasnya. RM500 begitu sebulan.

Tukang 1: wahh boleh tahan juga ah bayaran nya tu. tapi luas bah ini. mana tau kan. ada rezeki nanti. insyaAllah.

Aku: T___________________________T

now let me tell you why the tears?  aku rasa sudah lebih sepuluh kali aku minta tukar kereta dengan husband. motif? i never satisfied with the kenari. sekejap aku mau Lagi Best, after that tukar, Hyundai i10, Suzuki Swift, Alza, Exora, Suzuki Alto dan paling ndak sedar diri is Nissan Grand Livina. ndak sedar dirilah sebab with my salary and my commitments that i have now, Grand Livina is really not happening in the near future. so yes. i don't feel grateful enough for the kenari. but someone seems to long it. you should see his face when he talks about the car. it was with a big smiles. what does makes me feel? stupid.

the young tukang always makes excuses to the toilet along the day. but before he reach the toilet, he will make a pit stop in front of the TV. there was a time or two that  i saw him laughing so hard over the TV programme. one of it was Opera Van Java. do you know what does makes me feel? ungrateful.

they lived a hard life. looked at their clothes. what they did for a living. when my mom was here, she cooks for them and they went complimenting how good was her ccoking. and even menambah! comparing myself to them, the kind of life that i have, i feel ashamed. mom told me that the leader has seven kids at home. so mom gave him a box of Ady’s old toys. can you imagine how happy the kids will be? T_________T

now i have heavy rocks in my throat.

i know i am such a sensitive human being. but thanks to that, i saw things like this. aku jadi kepikiran malam malam mengenang nasib budak budak tu. dengan tiada berdokumen. macamana mau sekolah. jadi pandai. dapat kerja bagus rather than mewarisi pekerjaan bapanya. ubah nasib mereka sekeluarga. who will give them the chance? walaupun they all are PATI, they are also like us. mau hidup seperti biasa, macam orang lain, macam kita. so thank you, Tukang. for you i have understand some new things and also to be grateful with my kenari.

we aren't supposed to be living with the thoughts that this world only revolves around us. take a look around. it is okay to  be a little bit sensitive towards other people rather than just you, you and you. lets become a grateful (and happy) person with what we have.

this is an auto-self-reminder entry.

day 4: not so much of a rule breaker

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i remember my early days when i begin to get more concern and aware about fashion (to be pronounce as fa-shi-on like the Italian accent) was when i started to earn money by myself (working) some time in 2008. i make it clear on myself that i will not wear any long skirt/maxi skirt because of my height. yeah i’m short and shapeless. plus, i’m young and long skirts is just too matured for me. but that was a four years ago story.

this is this year story..

Black bawal – from segama, yang sebenarnya adalah tudung sekolah

Polka dot blouse – Bingo

Black long skirt – no brand

Red wedges – Sembonia

Dusty pink tote – CR

 

aku pernah jumpa perempuan lagi pendek dari aku pakai long skirts macam neh. ehh cantik pula pun. HIKHIK. jadi aku pun break my rule and pakai. oh satu lagi, pada hari yang sama juga, i did not wear any make up after Zohor dan pergi jalan jalan lunch with husband dengan confidentnya. ini juga breaking my rule. sebab aku tapernah leave home without anything on my face (be it foundation or just bedak sikit sikit). ini aku betul bangga. susah mau explain betapa bangganya aku rasa sebab berjaya confident without make up. now pat myself at the back.

oklah. ini saja yang aku mampu untuk tema kali ini. aku juga telah rule-break sebab sepatutnya tema hari ini adalah ‘on-the-go’. oleh kerana on-the-go aku sangat makcik makcik, jadi aku pegi sendiri cancel lah segmen itu. HAHAHA. sudahnya lepas neh orang tamau bawa aku main lagi sebab suka sangat main culas. teehee.

oh ya. red rose brooch itu cuma RM2.50 di Tamma.

my skin story

Last night,

“eh umyyy, kenapa muka mu banyak jerawat kecik kecik neh?”

“ermmm iyaaa biarlah dia. nanti pakai mekap ndak juga nampak tuh”

“eh tapi pasal mekap la bah juga neh muka mu berjerawat”

“pencuci muka umy yang mahal tu sudah habis bah. pencuci muka murah ba neh yang bikin jerawat”

“ohh..”

This morning,

“eh umy, aby belanja lah kau beli pencuci muka mu yang mahal tuh”

“eh? ndak payah lah. malas umy beli”

“atau kau mau pegi facial?”

“eh? lagi lah malas”

 

i know i know it doesn't do justice to my skin. with the working condition that i have to face (sometimes dalam esbok/office, sometimes panas panas di loji) maybe i should make a visit to the facial once in a while. tapi to my very own surprise, I AM LAZY!

i was blogwalking here and there just now sampailah i bumped into several entries yang review pasal beauty products. one of it is this. ini perempuan ah suka review pasal beauty tips. from what she used, to what she takes for beauty. aku memang kagum dengan kesungguhan dia lah. and yes. an effort like that will surely results a fruitful outcome.

bukan macam aku lah ya. before kahwin YES. itupun sikit sikit lah pula seja skin regime aku kalau mau banding dengan Dayana. tapi atleast ada. my daily routines. my facial visits itu pun ada. but now. minta ampun lah. HAHAHA. ini pun baru barulah aku mau rajin sedikit routine toner hari hari. adui. maka aku tidak hairan kalau masuk 30s muka aku yang deluan kedut dari kawan kawan aku yang lain. banyak fikiran lagi. ecehh.

i want a good and soft and glowing and and and segala macam and lagi lah skin, but i think i am satisfied enough with my skin now. it has flaws everywhere. but it is enough for me. mungkin pasal itulah aku jadi LAZY when it comes with taking care of my skin.

plus, i dont have the “kesanggupan” to spend a lot for my skin. i have the eh-bagus-lagi-aku-beli syndrome. it means, my skin is not my top priority. scary kan. that is why i have to remind my husband everyday that what he sees (me yang berkulit wrinkle kah jerawat kecikkecik kah kusam kah apa kah), is not what he gets. this (sambil menunjuk ke arah kulit muka) is only on the outside, like casing or handphone cover set. what matters is in the inside. ecehh.

 

 

so my conclusion would be; good heart, good words, good friends will results to a happy heart, happy vibes and surroundings, even though it is still not helping with having a good skin but who cares anyway. HEHEHEHE. 

eh. i still want the offer ah by the way. you don't give me offer during my kelamkabut hour. that is my cannot-think-straight-time. sekarang neh barulah kau tanya.

KEHKEHKEH. babai.

 

ps: sebenarnya aku memang si pemalas yang pandai putarbalik keadaan. hehe.

day three: jeans+legging = jeggings

Assalamualaikum.

hatch-ef-doubleyou assignment day three. bagus juga bah ada assignment macam neh. kinda distracting my mind into the place that she loves =))

Day three

Vacation and Destination: where would you go if you could go anywhere in the world? what outfit would you wear?

if only i could travel anywhere around the world, it will be the place that can took off my mind from what i have to face daily like problems, work, home or even the new jalan susur to my office yang gravel and muddy! i can picture myself in a floral printed long dress, flip flop, a big straw hat and shades!

but that needs to be put into a different entry. a looonnggg one. reality checked. I'll be wearing something comfortable (again! fashion is all about being comfortable with what you wear rite?) for sight seeing. aku selalu imagine kalau pegi tempat orang, manalah tahu di kejar penjahat (apa neh?!!) jadi aku mesti pakai something yang senang di bawa berlari. sorry i have to scratch that sentence. too much of an imagination. HAHAHA.

so this is what i wore during our May 2011 Holiday to KL

Shawl and Inner – Faeza Boutique (KK people, this boutique is at Karamunsing)

White long blouse – dont know the brand is but its from B.O.S

Blue Jeggings – P&Co

Pink shoes – Vincci

Shades - Fossil

 

yeap. its gonna have to be jeans again. i am very loyal to jeans. i could wear them 365 days a year. shoes and shades is a must too. what is a holiday without it? and YEAY to husband sebab he took soo many pictures of me during the holiday. jadi tidaklah perlu aku mau main dress up pula di rumah for the sake of buat this entry. belum sampai seru kerajinan yet.

oklahbai.

day two: malls and movies!

Assalamualaikum.

hatch-ef-doubleyou assignment day two.

Day Two

Hobby/recreation; what do you do when you have free time?

cheezzz this is a tough one HAHAHA although i am quite aware that malls is a dangerous and destructive place. unfortunately, i cannot resist for not going even for a weekend. with or without money, it is still a must visit place over the weekend. besides measuring malls (mengukur shopping complex T_T), me and husband always steal some time to catch up movies. be it just the two of us or bringing along the entourage.

so for malls and movies time, I'll always pick the most comfortable outfit to wear on. JEANS!

 

 

 

 

Shawl and Inner – Faeza boutique

Bat wing blouse – Bingo

Faded blue jeans (miriam) – mng

mustard yellow flops – vincci

sling bag – sembonia*

 

*birthday present 2009 from kak Mimi.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

another one. but mind you, a husband is not an accessories. sometimes. HAHAHA.

 

i still wear the express tudung especially when laziness strikes. and the one above was my very first Ariani. beli masa sales lah kalau tidak sales memang kempunan. this pic was taken last year. few days after knowing that i am pregnant. i just love love love my look. it was glowing. cehh. atau aku seja yang perasan? HAHAHAHA.

 

GSC, Suria Sabah

 

seeee glowing kan? =))

day one: an officer at work

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hatch-ef-doubleyou assignment day one. eh NO. i am not joining the real H F W mind you. i am afar from being a fashionista. ini main main punya seja bikin siuk siuk sendiri sama kawan kawan *waving at Aima*. if you are wondering apakah ini hatch-ef-doubleyou yang si Ona maksudkan sampai perlukah dia mengeja satu satu huruf itu, klik here and here. if you are not interested on clicking, tapayah je. layan gambar aku siok siok sendiri ja lah okeh. HAHAHA.

Day 1

Leaders in Hijab; What leadership roles do you have or want to try? (President, teacher, mother, volunteer leader, CEO etc.)

i really really want to try the mother role. but since its not my time yet (though i am a mother with an invisible baby KAHKAHKAH). so i just focus with what i have in the mean time lah okeh.

 stylo kan macam neh ah ah

so i choose an officer at work. maigaddd boringnya tajuk pemilihan leaders aku tuh. HAHAHAHA.

Shawl and Inner – Faeza Boutique

Bow Blouse and Grey Cardi – P&co

Blue Pants – mng

not wearing any shoes since we practise no-shoes in the office

 

ps: though i work in the govn sector, i only wear kurung on friday and meetings. lepas tuh consider diri rule breaker or terrorist. HAHAHA.

pss: my JD makes its more suitable for me to wear pants to work. laboratory, plants, etc.

psss: eh sorry eh semua orang. the previous post was not intended to be a sad one. some people read it and become sad lepas tuh laju laju tuit aku HEHEHE sekarang aku redeem post happy happy lah yaa.

pssss: fashionista ndak pakai tudung yang sama balik balik okehh. ppfffttt.

a year and a half, 8 months

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this is just a random posting for our first year and a half month being husband and wife. who counts that actually besides me? HAHAHA its just that, tomorrow (ahh i always have trouble spelling this word out) was April Tanisha’s 8 monthsary. so I was like today is our anniversary and tomorrow is April’s jadi macam heyy so special lah these dates. lets celebrate it. tadaaaaa. ini pun boleh jadi alasan lah ya. HAHAHAHA.

reminiscing the one year and a half made me realize that time do flies so fast and at the same time WHAT BARU SETAHUN SETENGAH?? kind of feeling. maybe its because i or we have been through quite a lot of things in our first year of marriage. tidaklah banyak cuma mungkin lain sedikit dari cerita alam perkahwinan yang biasa.

for some sort of appreciation to him, the husband, i would like to share this story with all of you. it was during my confinement days. as you all know my confinement days was not like any other ordinary confinement days for a mother and their new born. mine was without a baby. so for the first month, i was a bit lost in my thoughts and ‘dangerous’ if being left alone. HEHEHE. my mom stay with me for a couple of weeks, preparing meals and keeping up with my ‘medication’ schedule. masa itu aku kurang darah sedikit. so hafta to take Iberet a tablet per day. other than that, i am okay. not sick but weak it is.

weeks after weeks I've started to feel better and mom have to go back to Lahad Datu (working). i was confident enough with taking care of myself (and my feelings) alone at home for a couple of days before my little brother comes home from Politeknik.

but dear husband wasn't sure about this. the very first day he tried to go to work and left me alone at home was not successful. on his way to work, he made a detour to the clinic trying to get himself a MC. it was Klinik Dr. Suzain. we both love Dr. Suzain. but since dear husband was not even sick, so when it is his turn to met the doctor, he went telling her the truth about what he felt that time.

okay. now i feel like crying. pulakkkkk.

he told Dr. Suzain that he doesn't wants to go to work. he and his wife had lost a baby recently. his wife was emotionally disturbed and he was worried sick about leaving her alone at this time. he was a mess. his mind was elsewhere. he cant do work at that time.

and to his surprise, Dr. Suzain gave him a two days MC. kesian maybe she to my husband kan. actually, it was her the doctor whose confirmed my pregnancy and the very first ultrasound. it was her =))

there is also a time or two when husband have to bring me along to his office. he put me in the library with lots of book and food. just for the sake of making me feel safe and near to him.

that is how bad i am emotionally sick. hehe. the thing with being sick emotionally is you don't have the medication to cure this. and even the doctors cant help you. all that they can say was ‘only time will heal’.

so here i am after eight months away from my ‘worst moment’ of my life. picking up the pieces of my shattered heart. I'm gluing it back a little at time now. I'm taking my time slowly until i managed to get myself back together. and it is all make sense to me now that i don't need any medication to cure me. because time is a great healer, and Allah is the greatest healer. my husband, my family and friends are my supplements.

and so as i wake up this morning knowing that i have been sleeping side by side with this total stranger for a year and a half made me realize that i am in good hands. terima kasih Ya Allah kerana lelaki ini telah bersama aku sampai ke hari ini, dia masih mahu memahami aku, melayan tingkah ku dan bersabar dengan kekurangan ku. semoga Engkau panjangkan jodoh kami berdua di dunia dan akhirat. Amin.

taken today eh eh ah ah

i really want to give him the ‘gift’ that can cure both of us. never a replacement. but a gift. a rainbow after our rain. do pray for me please. jadikanlah keinginanku ini melebihi ketakutanku. doakan aku sedikit pun jadi lah =))

ps: pesanan untuk pembaca yang bergelar husbandku. hey you, jangan pernah kau bosan dengan ku seumur hidup mu okay.

pss: theme song entry ini.

BRB

Assalamualaikum.

Hello blog and friends. i am sorry for my lack of time spending in here. replying all comments. i was kinda occupied these few days by the office thingy. attending the water engineers meeting and conference gave me a booster for a head start for next year’s plan. at one time i was carried away with my own imagination planning in the head while i was driving that i did not realize i was speeding at 120km/hr and hafta to make an emergency brake at the traffic light *shivers*. hehe. melebih kan? syukurlah aku masih selamat.

however. I'll be back in here soon. please bear with me because i have many things to rambles about. HAHAHA. plus i have been given some sort of assignment from this mumi regarding the hatch-ef-doubleyou project. i am so excited about this. walaupun i’m not a fashion forward kind of girl, but i love fashion. so stay tuned kalau mau tengok aku fashion-hantam di sini. HAHAHA.

testing. testing. 1 2 3.